♥ my chapters ♥

lmao ♥

2009-07-27T00:07:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA!! When I first saw this picture, I was like eh marung jua my face atu. If I smile a bit, the shot will look much lawa. kan?? Malam tadi me and the siblings were vaining around Empire, thought there are still celebration going on but nooooo. huhu. oh well, even so we had fun jua. =D

Monday? Me and the colleagues will be joining UBD Orientation week till 1st August *maybe* im still in doubt till when it actually ends. Have to be at Chancellor hall by 7 am? Hahaha. Need to set my alarm clock if not I will be late again like before. hehe. I was known as a late-comer in class. kalii lahh. Well people will notice jua tu, like who yang selalu akhir masuk kelas. nda ja?? haha

thats all for now, nature calling me to stop typing

HAHAHA!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥

love him ♥

2009-07-25T15:23:00.002+08:00

♥ aaaalllliiiiiiifffffffff ♥

I so want him

i love him love him love him

he is my beautiful sparkle

he is my special type of drug

he is my life

he is my world

alif alif alif alif alif

2009-07-22T01:50:00.004+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥

ohh, im not into writing these days. Got these bloomy feeling of just uploading pictures with captions. I have been dreaming like everyday. Not concentrating and putting much of attention into my studies. Like wtf, why am I wasting my time. But to no avail Im trying hard now to keep up the standard of a university student. =.=

my life in a nutshell? heh got these quote from somewhere *wonders what exactly it means* anyone?

SEMESTER 5, a third year student. Currently stressing out my mind to learn psychiatry.

well apart from the ACUTE stress Im having, I really had fun last sunday hanging out with my high school darlingss =DDD

looking at the clock, asking myself why Im not sleeping? reasons? hahaha I was sleeping from 5pm till 9pm *like apakan*

tapi banarnya im missing my boyfriend =((

I guess he falls asleep lagi

should be on the phone with him like tadi bah but then no signs of him being awake at this hour

loving him to the fullest

ima try to sleep now

nites

♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥ Jilul ♥

2009-07-21T01:39:00.002+08:00

♥ HappYY Birthhdayyy Dearest Lil' Brother ♥

Muhd. Al - Nazirul Fudhail

turning 17 todayy!!

♥ 4 months ♥

2009-07-20T02:07:00.004+08:00

♥ thanks for loving me for these past 4 months love

i love you a lot lot

xoxo

2009-07-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

♥ Happyyy Birthdayyy Sister Diannaa ♥

♥ Fun ♥

2009-07-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

♥ Movie-ing and Escapade-ing ♥

Ka Diana & Abg Saiful Wedding

2009-06-29T23:30:00.007+08:00

Oh hello to my readers *i hope ada* haha. Anyhow, its been a while I didnt update anything. I have been totally busy with my Sister Diana's Wedding ceremony. Alhamdullilah, all her ceremonies went well. The Majlis Akad Nikah on 19th June, Berbadak on 25th June and Bersanding on 28th June. Congrats to her =D we, the family and cousins really had fun with these events. All the hardwork and cooperation from all involved family was worthy.

Oh

2009-06-14T09:58:00.000+08:00

And now I want you back

My Love

2009-06-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

I really miss you alif. Every night I will hear you recorded voice before I close my eyes. I even shade tears if I recall back our memories. I dont know why, is this what they call love or lust? To want you forever? To be in your arms? To feel your undying love? All this will be just a dream. A beautiful unfulfill dream perhaps. When you called me a bitch for not wanting you back, it really tears my heart apart.

♥ Thanks ♥

2009-06-10T11:26:00.006+08:00

thank you girls

FOR

♥ supporting me ♥

♥ giving me advises ♥

life must go on!

♥ The Friends ♥

2009-06-10T09:05:00.003+08:00

♥ love story ♥

2009-06-10T08:33:00.001+08:00

Lyrics | Taylor Swift lyrics - Love Story lyrics

2009-06-09T15:46:00.004+08:00

♥ confused ♥

i dont want you back

and

♥ I will watch you fall out of my heart ♥

6th June

2009-06-07T01:44:00.002+08:00

Stairway to heaven. God help me. Teach me to survive. He stabbed my heart repeatedly. =.= I felt lost. Thanks for being the one for just only 2 months and 17days. Last call at 11.08pm. I soo love him.

♥ your baby ♥

2009-06-03T14:34:00.003+08:00

The feelings I have for you are damn true

you told me you love me forever?

its hard for me to believe it syg

next time pleasee, dont mention forever

for me the word "forever" meant a lot

I sucks big time

2009-05-25T13:22:00.006+08:00

OMG!! What have I done? I felt completely lost lately. What the hell is wrong with me?? I felt dumb, fool, stupid and suckss. Please someone, wake me up from this nightmare I'm having right now. I cant think straight, I cant decide wisely, I cant do anything right, I felt like losing, like what the hell? What I know, I m not the same person I used to be. I felt like something big struck my head. And somehow it controls my thoughts and decision-making. Ehh, what have I became? A mannequin perhaps? Why am I into this revenge stuff?? Whatever he did to me was beyond his control. I wasnt suppose to be doing the same thing. I should sit quietly and do nothing. Just absorb and swallow everything without hatred. Do I feel happy after what I did? ohhh noooo!! I felt guilty and stupid. Such a jerk and immature girl!! This thing, roaming around my head how I wish I could throw it away. Goshh, slap me in the face!! Oh come on, he cheated me once. So we are equal now. But all is just for the sake of revenge. What am I fooling around? Being cheated by him and vice versa?? Whatever happen next, I will so not argue. For god sake, I really love this alif guy. I just dont know why I so love, like, need and want him.

♥ alif ♥

2009-05-20T19:42:00.004+08:00

♥♥ 2 months with you todayyyy ♥♥

♥♥ ohhh, I loove youu so muchh alif ♥♥

♥ its like a wondeful fairy tale ♥

hear my heart ache

hear my heart whispering your name

hear my thoughts

THAT

I really damn missed you

♥ Beach Carnival ♥

2009-05-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

♥ BEACH CARNIVAL ♥

International Nurses and Midwives Day Celebaration

Pantai Muara

17TH MAY 2009

2009-05-13T13:14:00.000+08:00

♥ I miss you soo much aliffffff ♥

2009-05-12T18:21:00.004+08:00

♥♥♥♥
Ka Syafiqah

Qaridah

Afikah

Jilul

♥♥♥♥

♥ pictures taken on 9th May ♥

♥ Gathering + Syahir's birthday ♥

♥ at Jangsak house ♥

♥ had fun ♥

♥ tired ♥

♥ hehehehe =D ♥

2009-05-11T17:02:00.002+08:00

To be with you forever or to leave you forever??? I chooseee, hmm. I have 3 months to think bout this. =P and I need to decide wisely. =D I love you alif but you lied to me zillion times. Your undying love isnt enough to keep me alive.

♥ ALIF LOVE DINIE ♥

2009-05-06T00:00:00.003+08:00

Sayanngggg... I love you.. I love youuu... I lovee yooo aaaa loooot!! =D

Happy Birthday sayanggg!! You have been living in this world for 23 years now. I am grateful that you came to this world. Thanks to your mother, that she delivered you safely. hehe

muaaah!! I only can greet you in my heartt

and I really really damn miss you sayang

missing youuuu like crazzzzyyyy

♥ Dinie ♥

2009-05-05T15:21:00.003+08:00

1) Alif's birthday tomorrow
2) Mid-Test on Saturday
3) Syahir's birthday on Saturday
4) Ka Nurhaime's wedding ceremony later this may
5) Ka Diana's wedding ceremony later this june

♥ Alif ♥

2009-05-04T15:41:00.001+08:00

hmm~ I dont wana play in ur game syg. Im not that strong. I miss you so much but you kinda-partially-lied to me. It hurts whenever I recalled those facts that you are seeing her behind my back. Erghh. Why do you have to hurt me this way? You can just leave me if you so don't want me anymore. If things get worse, Ima take a revenge on you. Hellishness as you said. I so dont care. I do whatever I like and want. And why do you made me trust, that it's love not a lust??

♥ Dinie ♥

2009-05-04T11:12:00.002+08:00

2009-03-25T00:40:00.003+08:00

Busy.. Busyy.. Bussyy monthhh.. Im doing my 6th slides presentation now. This is craazzzyyy.. Beyond my limit. Bowhh.. mumbling kuu nee. hehehehe.

2009-03-20T13:02:00.001+08:00

Forget the past!! A new chemistry has begun. =D I am currently enjoying my new life. Fucked up my old past. Don't even bother to recall back my so-called- fucking happy life before. Gahahaha.

2009-03-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

Sadness filled the empty spaces in my heart and silent tears pouring down my cheeks. Sesungguhnya aku cinta pada mu. =(

2009-03-06T19:32:00.000+08:00

I am torn; my heart ache. I am dumb. Wonder why? I love a guy but he will never be mine again. Its bullshit. I will never regret; its the best way for both of us. Neither you or I will hurt ourselves again. Lets hope for a miracle. Let this undying love be free. We are not meant to be together. I have been telling this to myself over and over again since the day I left you. Its hurt to see you with someone else. But I will pray for your so-called happiness. Fuck off with this never-ending relationship. Once again, I will avoid you as far as I could. Though my heart loves you completely. And again, Ima swallow this statement *I am sucks, a liar, a person you cannot put your trust upon and hopeless* again. I am tired of crying my heart out for unnecessary reason. I just cant see what is ahead of us. I am losing hope.

2009-03-05T15:20:00.002+08:00

I have been watching this tv series "merlin" lately along with my mother. I love this drama, its fun and hilarious at times.

2009-03-05T14:52:00.002+08:00

I like this picture bah. Si jilul punya art. One day, he did crytalisation in his school's lab *chemistry* I think pasal copper sulphate mix with sumthing sumthin. god, I totally forgot that stuff. So he brought home those blue crytals which is the end product of his practical.. You cant see the blue colour, black and whita kali ah. gehehe x) then he got this creative idea. What he did was, ia kumpulkan the tiny tiny crystals together. ANd tadaaa.. ter-formed tia heart shape =D lawaa kann.. Apa lagi, he grab his phone *which was stolen last year* and took some beautiful shots. I grab this picture from his friendster. ehehehe.

2009-03-04T21:33:00.007+08:00

Previously, I visited and window shopping saja huhu *pokai masa ni* at Seri Kiulap Mall. My sister, Ka Ida bawa my mother and I ke sana. She said ada kadai BARU exist di brunei ani. Dulu-dulu main ber order saja. This kadai Im talking about is 'Shop at Sarah's" which sells VICTORIA'S SECRET beauty products and Bath and Body works. Note that ladies... anyone knows this beauty products kann. GAWDD all the alluring scent *body lotion and cream plus body bath* make you feel SEXY and of course HARUM hehehe x) you guys can check their blog site; http://www.shop-at-sarahs.blogspot.com/ for further info

2009-03-04T04:30:00.006+08:00

Wondering who he is? He is my youngest brother. hehe. We call him "Jilul". Ia ani study in Seri Mulia Sarjana Secondary School. He is single plg but he loves someone. As what I know, he gave her a big "me to you" teddy bear last holiday. He is planning to celebrate her birthday at Escapade this July. Gilaa~ planning awal ia.. Bagus eh my adik ani. Gentlemen and suka plan awal-awal. Last time he told me yang he is saving money untuk the upcoming event. So I asked him to LANJA me as well. Kali nya, nda ia mauu. He said "eee~ aku sama classmate ku jua waa ne.. ee~ kacau.. malu iaa krg" I think he said something like that. Im not quite sure the exact words. =D anyhow, he is looking forward for it. Atu tah saja kali pasal ia. haha. karang ia marah if brag about him in my blog. *evil sister trying to expose his love life* hahaahaha

2009-03-04T04:10:00.003+08:00

hehehehehehe. This is what I felt when I looked straight to his eyes. My heart pounds fast if I think of it. Sometimes I yearn to touch him *at least his hand* x) oohh never mind, most of the time I didnt get to do so because he is too precious and fragile. I just cant lay my hands all over him kann and to think of it, I always fall for him once again everytime I saw him. x)

2009-02-15T12:27:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to my wonderful MOTHER!! Hajah Norjanah. Muuah!! Muuah!! I love you to the max =D hehehehehe

2009-02-08T22:06:00.004+08:00

"blow me a kiss"

2009-02-08T19:03:00.001+08:00

Today is my day off so do tomorrow =D

2009-02-08T16:18:00.001+08:00

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.- Captain Corelli's Mandolin. "Love is the beauty of the soul." --St. Augustine

2009-02-08T15:11:00.002+08:00

This is really sweet........

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wonderinghow long you will be around. When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.
When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person....

Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, 'That's her!! '

2009-02-07T20:37:00.004+08:00

Eh, talur. I heard something hazardous facts about this guy. *bare in mind, he is so fucking liar* Eh, mcm apa ia ah?? Im not your toy AND Im absofuckinglutely not gonna play in your so-fucking-called games. EHH, antam kau eh! Im ignoring you wretch. Tell me something, am I dat stupid to fall into your cheapstake trap again? I dont think so. I will be more careful next time. *yups I will* This is just something I should take lightly sebenarnya. Tapi it hurts bh. Eh, bukannya ku suka kau ah. Jangan kan perasan. You really are a honey-mouthed talker! Nonetheless, nampak mcm baik tapi.. only god knows the exact number of girls you had been trying to fooled with your so-called gentleness and your 24hrs attention. You told me, you are bored and lonely. Well fuck off. Stupid me to be fooled by you. urghh.. blaming myself for trusting you. Stupid me to layan u at first jua. *hate myself whenever I get a glimpse of you*

2009-02-05T23:56:00.003+08:00

SEE that CUTE teddy bear? I love it to the max. HEHEHE. one of my most favourable picture. *jeng jeng jeng*

p/s: kinda sexy sikit x)

2009-02-05T23:41:00.003+08:00

I really miss him tonight =/ I yearns to talk more with him =(

Glitterfy.com - Glitter Graphics

2009-02-04T23:28:00.006+08:00

eh, baru tadi I told my BFF yg I got no story to post. Sekalinya, barutah my mind ane working. ehehe. Here goes my stories:

NUMBER ONE

oh no, am I in trouble? I hope not. Eh, is it completely wrong kan if I spilled out something yg nda sepatutnya di bage tau? I feel a sudden urge masa tu, to just bge tau what this friend A told me about his relationship with friend B. As in, for example why A broke with B? urghh.. I just broke my so-damn promise pat A. I felt guilty eh. Hmm, I hope things work out bisai-bisai ey. *amin* Pasal both A and B atu my friend bah. I was once close with B jua. I need to apologise to A as soon as possible. Oh god, give me strenght to said it out-loud.

NUMBER TWO

So last sunday, on 1st january. Mata-mata family ada small function. We had lunch di Sotorindu Restaurant di Sengkurong. It was for doa selamat untuk Ngah Isah's family on relation to Rabiatul's Olevel perfomances and Sofi's custody. Congrats ngah =) plus doa selamat for those yang birthday bulan january. *Happy Belated Birthday kamu kamu* Abiss makan atu, I was wondering after this kemana lage ah. I dont wanna go straight home bh. Iatah nagging pat Ka Diana and Mama apa plan dorang hehe so I set my mind to ikut Ka Diana saja. Oh where ever she goes, mana saja tah. hahaha. tapi banarnya the night before Ka Ida told me yang ia kan ke Mall *automatically I was the one yang dagani jua tu* hahaha I sengaja lupa about that plan. Cause I wana go jalan-jalan with Ka diana, Nurul and Jilul (yealah lama nda jumpa dorang) hehe So it turned out, Ka Diana bawa kami kami ke Karnival Perikanan which is di Muara. I was kinda excited mana tau banyak ikan ikan yang rare and lawa lawa. haha. Before ke sana, we singgah ke rumah Jangsak. Kaka need to change her baju to official T-shirts cause Kaka is representing her school, Vokasional Wasan. Si syahir berkelahi ama Si khai on our way out of the house, so Kaka mada a quick desicion to bring along si syahir saja. Since si khai yang jahat. He bite syahir mana kan jua. But he nags pat mummynya buleh ia ikut kah nda. haha. We JUST ignore him. hehe. We visited one ship *not sure it is called a ship kah nda but whatever lah* and roamed inside. The ship ada tiga tingkat uh, it was sampit I mean the corridors plus orang ramai jua masuk ke dalam. From what I saw, there are bedrooms, kitchen, dining hall, prayer room, laundry room *ada mesin sasah yang auto and manual lge tuh* Kinda shocked, rupanya ada jua mcm atu di dalam kapal. HAHAHA. Eh I almost forgot, we saw some sea turtles dalam this blue open tank. =D si syahir iski meliat and so do I. *kinda sakai mula mula* HEHE

2009-02-04T23:02:00.005+08:00

A friend gave me this pink rose last saturday. It was my first flower tho. I was SURPRISED since I didnt expecting it. So SWEET of him ey. I am a bit happy but some part of me feels sad as how I really WISH it was given by those whom I love. hehehe. but yeahh, it took him some courage to hand out the rose. thanks to him, I cried my heart out. =/ eh apakan, I cried pasal that was my first flower ah. He said it was a token of what-so-he-called appreciation from him. He thanked me for our friendship. eh, so thoughtful of him. =) anyhow, Im thankful. you rock me, \m/ hahahaha

ps: mind that, kinda nda lawa gmbr ah =(

2009-02-04T22:16:00.004+08:00

hopeless? I guess so, life is getting harder these days. I cant barely think straight. I think I am losing hope on something I dreams about in my useless head. I dont THINK this is rightt either for me too. =/ from the corner of my deepest heart it is unreasonable to just let it go. urghhss what am I bragging about? BUT life is wonderful. Am I right? oh dinie, why would you stress out your mind on something which is falsely true.

Enjoy your special day =D

2009-01-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH OF YOU WHOM I LOVE =D yess you, Ka Ida Massuri and Auntie Jabaidah.. A year older, an inch taller. Gahahaha. May allah bless both of you. You have a day to celebrate. Hehehe Ka ida siuuk eh, celebrate di limbang with Prince Bebeh nya. Oopss. Kedapatan taya. xp I wish you all the best. Yeay!! x)

Electricity is back

2009-01-24T02:13:00.002+08:00

The story is, kan batah2 ane hujan2 saja. Kdg2 labat, kdg2 nda. Then last wednesday nite, the electricity starts to shut down around kg mata2 ane. Ya allah. When I looked out, it was dark bnr. It was not common kan in brunei mcm ane. No lights on da streets. Traffic light pun nada karan I heard. I dun see much light inside people's home jua. Since tuesday kali, hujan labat. Land slide sana ne, floods jua, low land houses kana masuki aing sampai paras lutut kah. Hmm so on thursday, I didnt get to go to work d Ripas. Our cars (both my mom n sista) was trapped inside, since pagar automatic. So we have to climb the pagar in order to go out. Hahaha. Nada deh, there's a small gate lage yg manually berkunci. Hehe. For the past 2 days, nda siuk tdor. Hot jua lah tym mlm. Seksa rasanya nada karan atu. Allah, galap gulita d rumah ah. I was asleep udah tadi around kul 10 tu, then mid night my mom bguni. Alhmdlh the electricity is back. So I rushed my finger to switch on the air-cond. Yeay.. Im totally glad, ada karan udah. Oh yeahh, nda bepanas lage ne. x) Hehe. I am on my way to sleep tdi tapi nda tia dapat sambung tdor balik till now. Uwaa~ its 2-ish in the morning udah ne. I wana sleep tpi I keep on thinking this thing dat roams around my head. Urghh. I need to put myself together..

Ist day clinical attachment

2009-01-19T17:24:00.002+08:00

First day? It was a hectic experience. Early morning udah doing morning care. As in bed bathing. Hehe. I was late 3 mins when I first came into the ward. Dorang staff nurse sudah start passing report. Tadi wah, rupanya the door entrance of ward 21 & 22 atu automatic.! Iatah, when I tried to push the door open nda mau. Kalinya, ada dis intercorm ckp "anda menyanyi dahulu untuk masuk" haha atu bangang. I was shocked. Luckily, ada orang d dalam help me open the door. If not, kana naya th dne tu. =D sii shirleena pun kana naya. Ada hidden camera pat dluar entrance tuu. The staff liat pat dis small tv placed pat nursing station. *geleng kepala* Penaya wah drg atu. Haha. Ada2 saja drg ckp. Then tdi, ada orientation given by ward sister regarding both of the ward. Berslide show kalie~ hehehe. Soon, my collegue tanya napa automatic the door..the main reason behind it is to control the number of visitors. I was like "oouuh" haha. Lagging~ and and tetdor dne kajap tadi dapan sister. Astaplajim, kna tagur ey. Huhu. =( tapi he is cool bnr. He orientated us from A to Z. He did advice to be a commited nurse and stuff. Oh yeah this week, kami semua morning shift. Alhamdullilah. Balik pukul 2. Hehe. =D this attachment ends after 5 weeks.

Pantai Muara =D

2009-01-18T20:07:00.001+08:00

I went home around 6 o'clock tadi. Im kinda tired ey. But I had fun tadi. Yeay. Its been a while, dne nda ke sana tu. =D There's a small bbq d pantai muara. Guess pkul brapa i woke up tadi? Gahaha. Pukul 6 lalu. Allah, awal bnr. Pasal I have to follow my mom, ia antar dne ke jangsak. I left my clincal shoe ah, so I went to my original home, to take it. I need it, pasal esuk start clinical attachment di RIPAS. I was assigned to ward 22. Yeay!! Hehehe. So back to pasal pantai muara atu, ada small bbq. Organised by our collegue. And and ada suprising moment tdi. Hehe. Ada birthday cake untuk si yusri. So we sang him a b'day song. =D nanti I will upload some of the pictures I took.

Yousri

2009-01-16T00:19:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to u yus!! Walaupun u nda suruh kami hush hush pat classmates tani. Cali si yus ane, nda ia mau orang ramai tahu ia birthday. Weird guy. Hahaha. Sorry yus. I did get to greet him tadi on my way out dari library. Hehe. Si yus ah, being secretive bnr. Once again, weird guy. Xp It was tadi plg. 15th of January.. Abiss sudah birthday moments nya.. =D anyhow, wishing him all the best ah. I dare to wish him here pasal I know he will not read this post. Hehe

Love Sucks

2009-01-11T12:27:00.005+08:00

I am in a state of confusion. My head spun around with old wonderful memories. I have no reasons to be with him again. We are better off friends than having a love bond. I love him. I want him. I desire him. But he will never be mine again. Not in a million years to come. Not a single drop of tears I will shade again. But I will keep on seeing him around. I just can't throw him away. He's like my special type of drug that I consume to relieve every pain I suffered. I need him whenever I feel despair and bored. I will just ignore him as I please. But he will treat me like there's no lies between us. He loves and cares me. He cherishes me with all his love. He suffers too much from this love. I hate myself for hurting him again. For that, I will constantly remember him.

Empire

2009-01-10T03:14:00.004+08:00

Ohh no

2009-01-10T02:38:00.003+08:00

damn~ its 2 o clock in da morning and I m still wide awake. What am I dreaming of? I m not dreaming, I m thinking of him again. =( Anyhow starting today, I m staying with my mum in Mata2. Oh god, please. I really need to sleep.. =D oh yeah, we went to ICC tadi. There's a consumer fair, electrical n car shows, batik clothing n stuff. I did saw a lot of people I knew tdi. On our way sana, it was raining. We are wet when we entered the hall since we only had one umbrella. I forgot to bring mine. Hehe. If not, my jeans wudnt be as wet as it was tadi. Uhuh. People are like staring at my jeans especially bawah pat my kaki ahh. But I dont care, I just straight on jalan around with it. Hehe. N u know what my batuk-ness got worse. Give me a cure for this. Urghh. I think pasal da surrounding tdi tu. Bnyk habuk. N da place are crowded wit homosapiens. Bnr, too much to see ah. My eyes lagi liar tu ksana kemari meliat orang. Huhu. Sensitive tia my nose ane if tym selesma.

Dec 08

2009-01-08T20:00:00.005+08:00

Hearts <33

2009-01-08T19:51:00.006+08:00

senyuman paksa kh tu lingg?

Limah~ membuang stress ngan menyanyi. Soon, sarut tia suaranya ah.

gmbr kajap sblum mkn di escapade =D

I love you both. muaahungs =x

I have been sick =(

2009-01-08T19:08:00.012+08:00

Hii readers,

Its been awhile since i didnt go blogging. No mood plus no stories to share. uhhuh. To tell you, i'm still recvering from dis illness I have created. gahaha. Nda lah, I went damam plus my leg hurts. *main DDR berabis with wet clothes masa tu pat my ngagah's house, si syafiq celebrate his 5th b'dy. There was a slide pool bouncer. I go played it skajap saja then went back inside the house to play ddr. Iatah, damal2 tu buat dne damam kalie.*

This holiday, I've been staying at home. *tdur mkn* haha soon I will get my degree on DAPUR OFFICER. hehehe. I didnt get to go anywhere else selain di brunei ane. I spent my time a lot on sleeping and angan2-ing him.

29th - I broke up with him. 3 weeks and 3 days together. Sure, a hell lot of memories.

I have been wondering, if my desicion on being single back is the right choice or not. But so far, I love my life. Its been better since the last one. Though it hurts =(

This monday, Ima start studying. I missed my classmates esp drg2 lyan, naina, shidah and fillah. We will start throwing our uniforms aside and wear casual clothes. yeay!! We are officially under UBD now.

Love Letter

2008-11-29T11:15:00.005+08:00

You and I should conspire

to find a corner of the world

where we ride a chialiot of fire

our banners of love unfurled

8th INC 25th-27th

2008-11-29T07:31:00.005+08:00

Lets the pictures do the talking... =)

Congrats Ka Diana

2008-11-29T07:02:00.005+08:00

Congratulation to Kaka Diana (my eldest sister) on her engagement day 23rd November with Abg Saiful. Sorry, I didnt get to take a lot of pictures using my phone. I was assigned to be a non-professional photographer (ahahahaah) and to use ka diana camera. Nanti I get those photos from her.. That day, it was soo tiring. Our living room is kind of crowded. hehe. it was so great, as my two hearts whom I invited last minute get to attend it. HEHE. LOVE you darls.

INC

2008-11-22T13:02:00.003+08:00

International nursing conference is coming soon. It will be on dis tuesday 25th till 27th at Rizqun Hotel. For the past few days, me and the babes are helping our teacher in sorting+pasting+cutting invitation cards and just now we did a lot with labelling. hehe. plus melipat2 and mengam2 labels atuh. it was fun though it was tiring.. I took dis picture lapas ku siap melipat2. hehe =)

Stalker+Pervert

2008-11-22T12:25:00.003+08:00

YOu know I hate you
You know I dislike you
You know THAT I dont want to be your friends
You know you disgusted me
You know all about my hatred
But you IGNORE IT..
And still you looked and stalked me..

Friday =)

2008-11-22T07:45:00.000+08:00

love me

2008-11-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

memanat seorg2 di audi~

lawa eyy~ baju ane.. too bad it doesnt fit me.. =(

Untuk sii Lyan

2008-11-20T15:15:00.000+08:00

Glitterfy.com - Glitter Graphics

Morning Sunshine

2008-11-20T07:42:00.005+08:00

I woke up late this morning, I had a bad dream. It was not what I had imagine before. The picture above, I took it from www.istockphoto.com. There is a lot more like this. You should visit that website. Its cool and you can have as many as cool images yourselves. HEHE!! anyway.. I was so broken-hearted last nite. I chatted with someone whom I was close with before. I can't believe he loved me still. I don't really get it, he said he was drunk but yet he texted me a lot. He hurt me, I shade tears just because of him being so negative of himself. URGHH~ why do you have to said that way.

my family <3

2008-11-19T13:12:00.004+08:00

babes

2008-11-19T13:06:00.000+08:00

I miss kamu~ muah! hugs!

D'Masiv

2008-11-19T07:30:00.001+08:00

D’Masiv - Di Antara Kalian

ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu

tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian

aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

Ku akui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu

tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa

aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

reff:

lupakan aku kembali padanya

aku bukan siapa siapa untukmu

ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa

ku harus memilikimu slamanya

aaa…aaa…

ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu

tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian

aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

repeat reff

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Naasirudden

2008-11-19T00:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

19th November

A year older, an inch taller

have fun

enjoy your day

may Allah bless you with

wealth and prosperity

hence good health

hehehehehe

Nazirul a.k.a Jilul

2008-11-18T22:50:00.004+08:00

Sii jilul ne..our youngest brother. I took this picture inside Mall's elevator. HEHE!! Saja menyampati begambr since the three of us (ka ida, jilul and me) saja dalam atu. We are heading to ground floor from lower basement tadi. Si jilul kan beli junk foods for his class party esuk. Yang membagi hairan, kan ke gdg th plg.. Rupanya, he wanna meet his friends and jalan with them. He thought we were just dopping him off di mall. humph~ pandai buat plan sendiri. Anyhow, sekajap saja ia jalan ah. Pasal his friends balik sudah. Siann si jilul. Aher kami sampai atu mana kan jua..

vain-ing in Lyan's car

2008-11-18T00:25:00.002+08:00

Ladies night's out

2008-11-17T23:53:00.005+08:00

Qamar, Naina and Azemah

Lyan, me and Sharifah

As what I said tdi ptg, I finally get to watch madagascar!! =) It was a hilarious movie, very funny and very enjoyable. Sakit parut ku, I end up shading tears pasal ketawa saja.. hehehe.. So after abis liat movie, we dine in di ahan thai. thanx babes.. I really had a great time tdi. It was fun hanging out with all of you. Eventhough, I was kind of paning and sakit mata.Contact lense ku tu yg membge paning ah. haha. still not used to wearing it. My vision when watching the movie and tym makan tadi is blurred bnr.I hardly see a clear thing as I had to focus on everything I see. huhu. not a good idea, to wear it though. Despite of my kabur-ness, I am glad we had this night out. Hehehe. Ohh yea.. arah lyan bnyk gmr kmi tu.. I'll just post the pictures from my phone saja. =) ada tu darling ku si qamar and sharifah ahh... Sorry kamu.. baru ada ur pics dlm my blog neh. hehe. I love you all!! see you tomorrow xp

GossipGirl

2008-11-17T15:24:00.003+08:00

he's GORGEOUS

Main Characters In GG

Chace Carwford - Nate Archibald

Blake Lively - Serena Van Der Woodson

Penn Badgely - Dan Humprey

Leighton Meesler -Blair Waldorf

I have watched GG season 2 till episode 9~ yyeaaha..

i'm waiting for the next episode from Nurul (my lovely sister)

Her bf, daus downloaded all the episode from some website

Nurul.. I want to watch the next episode lge.. wawawa

my darlingss

2008-11-17T14:43:00.004+08:00

fillah ne..
shidahh~

Azemah!! c.lawa

c.elephant.. hahaha jn mrah lyan

Naina ku~ lawa suaranya ne mun ia menyanyi!

darlingss ku, Qamar and Sharifah lage nada tuh.. I will post their picture soon =)

Lunch; Escapade Sushi

2008-11-17T14:08:00.005+08:00

adui~ half of my face kemana??

finale; the three of us

esehh..

payah megang chop stick atu..

Lyan teseliur kan makan sushi bh, iatah we went there tdi tgh hari. We had a great time. hehe =) tapi kan, we had to tapau yg extra food yg nda temakan lge atuh. I was full berabis! hahaha *bloating sensation*--> keluar nursing care plan ku.. Eh eh tonight; lyan, naina, zemah, shar and I will gonna watch a movie (madagascar) yea ha.. Cant wait to see it! I was craving to watch it dari ari tuh dah. Like semua urg udah liat, tinggal aku lge alum! haha so outdated!

I love this picture

2008-11-17T07:28:00.000+08:00

sleepy head!! kuang3

Horoscope

2008-11-16T23:27:00.007+08:00

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy.
Attractive.
GREAT kisser.
One of a kind.
Loves being in long-term relationships.
Extremely energetic.
Unpredictable.
Will exceed your expectations.
Not a Fighter, but will knock your lights out if it comes down to it.

VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships.
Someone loves them right now.
Always wants the last word.
Caring.
Smart.
Loud.
Loyal.
Easy to talk to.
Everything you ever wanted.
Easy to please.
The one and only.

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable.
Intelligent.
Loves to joke.
Very good sense of humor.
Energetic.
GOOD kisser.
Always get what they want.
Attractive.
Easy going.
Loves being in long relationships.
Talkative.
Romantic
Caring.
Sexy.

LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet.
Their Love is one of a kind.
Silly, fun and sweet.
Have own unique appeal.
Most caring person you will ever meet!
However not the kind of person you wanna mess with...you might end up crying.

ARIES - The Liar
Outgoing.
Lovable.
Spontaneous.
Not one to mess with.
Funny.
EXCELLENT kisser.
EXTREMELY adorable.
Loves relationships.
Addictive.
Loud.

GEMINI - Irresistible
Nice.
Love is one of a kind.
Great listener.
Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.
Trustworthy.
Always happy.
Loud.
Talkative.
Outgoing.
VERY Forgiving.
Loves to make friends.
Has a beautiful smile.
Generous.
Strong.
The Irresistible one.

LEO - The Lion
Great talker.
Attractive and passionate.
Laid back.
Knows how to have fun.
Is really good at almost anything.
GREAT kisser.
Unpredictable.
Outgoing.
Down to earth.
Addictive.
Attractive.
Loud.
Loves being in long relationships.
Talkative.
Not one to mess with.
Rare to find.
Good when found.

CANCER - The Cutie
Most AMAZING kisser..
Very high appeal.
Love is one of a kind.
Very romantic.
Most caring person you will ever meet!
Very creative.
Extremely random and proud of it.
Freak.
Spontaneous.
Great at telling stories.
Not a fighter, but will knock your lights out if it comes down to it.
Someone you should hold on to.

PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind.
Smart.
Center of attention.
High appeal.
Has the last word.
Good to find, hard to keep.
Fun to be around.
Extremely weird but in a good way.
Good Sense of Humor!!!
Thoughtful.
Always gets what he or she wants.
Loves to joke.
Very popular.
Silly, fun and sweet.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust.
Nice.
Sassy.
Intelligent.
Sexy.
Irresistible.
Loves being in long relationships.
Great talker.
Always gets what he or she wants.
Cool.
Loves to own Gemini's in sports.
Extremely fun.
Loves to joke.
Smart.

TAURUS -The Tramp
Aggressive.
Loves being in long relationships.
Likes to give a good fight for what they want.
Extremely outgoing.
Loves to help people in times of need.
GOOD kisser.
GOOD personality.
Stubborn but a caring person.
One of a kind.
Not one to mess with.
Usually are the most attractive people.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous.
High appeal.
Rare to find.
Great when found.
Loves being in long relationships.
So much love to give.
Not one to mess with.
Very attractive.
Very romantic.
Nice to everyone they meet.
Their Love is one of a kind.
Silly, fun and sweet.
Have their own unique appeal.
Most caring person you will ever meet!
Not the kind of person you wanna mess with because you might end up crying.

my chemistry

2008-11-16T20:40:00.003+08:00

Baby i been missin you,
i never thought i'd feel this way,
all the feelings i have inside grow stronger everyday
everynight you have been on my mind
could you be the one i have been waiting for?
i wanna hold you and show you how much you meant to me,
don't you know i want you in my life
you are the only one i really want
to look into your eyes
and let the world just pass me by
i'll be loving you always
baby you will never know just
how lonely i'll feel
this love i feel is far too strong that u can't just lead me on

chill-ing

2008-11-16T19:16:00.005+08:00

Dinie & Amal
Amal & Ka ida

So today, i went to gadong with my sister (ka ida) and my cousin (nurain amal, i'll just call her amal). We arrived there, and I was like "ish bnyk jua org, ada apa di mall ah?" it turns out, ada roadshow BMW.. No wonder it was crowded and filled by different types of homosapiens! We parked di basement. Amal minta dagani meliat baju to update her closet. So we roamed around and masuk kadai2 yg bejual baju. Tpi not a single clothes attracts her. We got tired and decided to sat down pat gelato di atas atu. I drank double chocolate tpi drg mkn ice cream~ I don't feel like eating one tadi. hehe. Sekalinya ada our cousin c.wafy ani, so I asked him to take our pics. hehe. He happened to pass by tdi, iatah Amal called him. You know what, Amal clapped her hands kuat-kuat rather than shouting his name. So we asked, kenapa catu, then she said "andang macam atu kalau kan memanggil" hahaha =)

Robert Pattinson

2008-11-15T22:02:00.009+08:00

I have done reading twilight, new moon and eclipse..oh my god..can't wait to watch it on cinema dis december!!siukk reading these books..u shud read it jua.. vampire romance ah!! edward cullen, the hero with his lover bella swan.. the way he express his love, the way he protect her,the way he looked at her.. so romantic.. edward said "listen to your heart fly" i love dis quote! and bella once said "my heart is just as silent" hehe so after I finished reading eclipse I was saying "ka diana.. laju beli tah yg breaking dawn.." can't wait to read it. I crave for it! So since ia collect the three books. I wasn't allowed to buy one for myself. humph~ kA diana th plg yg men collect ani wa.. hehe she is soo cool!! ohh yea.. hanni lend me her book (mounting desire) its a book from little black dress.I haven't start reading it uhuh =( ..motivate me..

my heartss <3

2008-11-15T14:01:00.003+08:00

fadillah and halimah

~I love both of you~

Dinie Hadhinah

2008-11-15T13:21:00.006+08:00

for those who inspire me to create a blog : thank you very much

"you love me more than I deserve"

the title of my blog

you wonder why?

its just a quote.. not more than that

but how I wished its damn true

anyhow.. I'm still figuring out which template will suit into my blog

I'm still searching for the right one

wish me thousands of luck

smile always dinie =)